I just feel so sad for society today. I feel sad for humans. I feel sad for those who can’t seem to shake that they are living a life for the approval from other people.
The vaccines are causing cycle issues for women everywhere, and most of the articles I read are very dismissive.
I think recently having a c-section and having my body finally be at a place where I can have a healthy cycle again, I am saddened that the vaccine may in fact change that again. I’m full of fear, to say the least, and I am unsure what validity I need to follow (within myself mostly).
I know I will be getting the vaccine - I mean I never ever get the flu shot ever, so this is a big thing for me. All the theories (both scientific and conspiracy based) are tough to follow. I feel there’s not enough time for us to take in the information before we are shoved that we HAVE to do something to travel or be a “good citizen”.
I desire to travel for my passion and my work. My documentary is happening, and having this lifelong dream come to life is something I am so fulfilled with. And so it stands that for me to fulfill this documentary fully, I will need the vaccine - to keep myself and others safe.
And then my whole soul knows. It feels dampened that this is a thing. And yet, I know my soul signed up to be here during this time.
I’ve never known if I wanted to have kids. I thought I would have more insight after having a c-section (which could have eliminated my chances.... truthfully not being able to have kids would have impacted me greatly - I just wanted the choice 🙏🏼 (thank you universe), but I would have coped with it as a sign I wasn’t in fact supposed to). But the idea that our cycles, and possibly the ability to have children could be affected is really lighting every part of me.
I guess we can allow this to evolve and 'stand in this' in our own ways that feel right - we can use our voices, honour our bodies, and do what is needed in each moment while we figure this out. Maybe it IS simply just the 'shock' of having a new thing in our bodies (which I think is a crap excuse and is very dismissive)... And maybe it's not...