I have to pretence this with a few things: a) I was living out of a suitcase out of need because I was running away from my problems (which I didn’t know at the time but was not ready to face them - and this is totally okay!!!) b) if I were to do this again (like I used to when I was a young adult), I would gather the assets and cash to be able o live-it-up on a suitcase adventure c) I will always have to provide myself with a home available to come back to.
Regardless of the hard lessons the last 2-3 years has taught me, I have also gained some priceless knowledge for what I feel being a human can mean..
I learned that you really don’t need a lot to look good and feel good. Location does not determine your happiness, success or worth. You can run all you want but your problems will follow you and possibly become accentuated as you feel more uncomfortable and ready to deal with change (this is a positive thing!!).
If you are going through a hard time and need to escape, I hope you find places that allow you to heal. I hope you find places that provide you with comfort and safety so you can focus on what is so clearly asking to be healed. I struggled to find this safety throughout my healing and it made it a lot longer and more drawn out. I have to see and am grateful for how it all laid itself out for me though because as I was fighting to heal, this lack of safety brought up even deeper things that needed to be healed. I was asking to feel good again and to be powerful, so the universe was responding so hard core with a lot at once to allow for substantial growth.
I do not claim to be enlightened… but I kind of feel enlightened… so.. who is to judge me on saying that. Nobody.
Some other personal insights:
Now, I am working through unnecessary fears of having too much stuff to weigh me down. I recognize I love having things that propel my best self forward (mics, guitars, cameras, golf clubs, kayaks, etc) but simply just need to find the balance in freedom with my things. Things can always change. You can ALWAYS pick up and change any situation you are in. If you don’t try you will never know. And hence, if you need to, you can sell everything you own and travel that damn world again (once we adjust more to this virus).
We are beautiful spirits. We are one with the land we stand on. We get to know the land we choose to settle on / visit, but the entire earth is our home. If you wish to be free in ways that may not seem ‘normal’, be free. I will live out of a suitcase again, or a caravan ;) Adventure and new things are in my blood (that is the life I choose to live)… Yet this next time, I will be set up for success - and I can’t wait!!!!!
For now, I gain my strength and power. For now, I work on presence and joy. I feel as though I am still slightly recovering from my falls. I realize how much things take time, yet I also acknowledge that huge changes can happen in an instant! Change happens at the pace it is supposed to. The Universe is guiding you into your greatest version of yourself. Everything offers an opportunity to learn. Allowing yourself to see all sides in any situation provides insight and a sense of clarity that makes you a fucking powerhouse. Tune in my friends. You are powerful. Own it - own all sides of yourself.
Sometimes I am still so shocked by how much the world lives in a lacking state/mentality. And it's not our fault! This generation in-time (screw attaching this movement to a specific group of people), is full of growth in awareness. This time is full of growth in our own personal journeys...
I definitely enjoy learning from all these different movements. To me though, gripping on to one can be slightly skewed, and almost cult-ish, so I stick to my intuition and detachment as I learn. It is an interesting dichotomy, balancing the fact that we are social creatures yet need the emotional intelligence to stand alone in our worthiness (and our own thoughts) along the journey.
This is where I'm at today. I hope you find depth and warmth in this, and I hope we can connect soon ❤️