To exist for thyself is to exist for others.
I find I have to defend the idea that I am existing to be more in tune with myself, to heal myself more, and that in turn that is helping other people more. But let's think about this for a second... The more we love ourselves unconditionally, the more we practice this idea, then hence the more we can offer this practice to other people as well!
It seems selfish sometimes to focus on thyself - to say 'fuck everyone else' and do what feels right for you. But again, once you hold space for yourself to exist as you are, and love all that you are in every moment, can you only understand how to offer that space for other people to be their beautiful selves.
Yummy thoughts for this day.
I was featured on a beautiful podcast this fine day - I will post it here once it is up <3 (HERE: Podcast
SO much love,
Bebbbbss Rebs REBOOKIE Love
I just found out that I will most likely need to have surgery on my ovaries to rid of a large fibroid. The part of me that feels the most saddened is my soul. It feels deeper than just a build up of tissue on my ovaries that needs to be removed. It feels as though my body has been used and objectified so much by the patriarchy - my sexuality exploited continuously - and that this build up has been my body trying to protect myself from this harm. As I am discovering my empathic abilities and strengths, I am allowing myself to lean into this deep over-encompassing sadness for all women who have experienced any sort of darkness from the patriarchy. I feel things about all aspects of a life as a woman who has had to fight to simply exist in this world as an equal.
I threw myself in the bath instantly, as this is where I feel the warmth from the water and comfort myself to release and heal....
As a part of me wants to judge how wildly exaggerated this may seem, the part that understands healing fully knows that I need to embrace all emotions that are present. It is important to acknowledge the truth that my body and soul believes to be true ... so I can release it. I want to release this anger fully, this exhaustion to defend who I am as a human... I want to release this so I can love all again fully, and tell my beautiful ovaries that we can heal fully. We are safe - I will always keep myself as safe as I can. This woman has a protective aura around her now - a BRIGHT-as-fuck white light that will penetrate the shit out of those who wish to come forth with ignorance or harm. I am aware now. And, I will shine louder because of this.
This healing will take time. This will take processing and a lot of hard work. I know I can stand FULLY in my power as I intend to heal this part of my existence. I want to move forward with all the glory given to me as a soul on this earth. I want to continue to inspire us all to live our lives as our best selves - and that includes healing ALL sides of ourselves... loving ALL sides of ourselves.. forgiving others and standing up for those who need it when it arises in our lives. I am here. I will always be here - even after I die - I will be fighting for you, I promise.
My ovaries and I <3
This is Jules (she/they). She is brilliant. Her voice could fill an entire opera stadium - it's beautiful. Jules is artistic and OR-GA-NIZED, which is why I have hired her as my personal assistant and marketing guru. We bonded immediately on the foundational values of loving all humans, and sharing our work to help inspire the world.
Grateful as ever to have her on my team... Jules is going to rock your worlds. Find her on insta @jules.m.sherwood